Tuesday, July 02, 2002
TODAY IS MY 25th BIRTHDAY!
TODAY IS MY FUCKING BIRTHDAY! YAY! It's weird when you wake up on the day of your birthday. Everything seems different. Good different, but different nonetheless. As soon as my eyes opened I thought, WOW! I am 25 years old today. And it feels good! I feel older and more mature. Not that a night's sleep will do that. I was talking to Rita last night about how it sucks to keep getting older. But today, I feel good. I am actually happy that I am 25. Maybe I worried too much about being this age in the past and now I have just come to accept it. I mean, of course, there are things I want to change...such as my career, financial status, etc. But for today...I am thrilled to be 25. And I am thrilled to still look like I am 18. I guess the days are coming when I am going to have to capatilize on that theory. I remember all of these people saying to me: "You look so young...you will love that when you get older". Well, now I am older and I do in fact love that.
So here is what I have done on my birthday so far:
Did my normal routine and then while I sat and smoked my cigarette before work, I opened the the birthday cards that I received thus far. I got one from my uncles, one from my granny, one from Rita, one from Rita's sister Jeannie. I have to admit...up until this point...Jeannie's card is by far my favorite. I loved yours too Reets. But Jeannie...damn that shit be funny. I laughed out loud and then hugged the card to my chest.
Ok, I didn't quite hug the card to my chest...that would be queer, right? Thank you for thinking of me. :-D (picture one lone tear rolling down my face...but a tear of happiness)
After opening my cards, I had a moment of sadness. I don't know why. Sometimes when I get really happy, something in me slaps me in the gut and makes me sad. I don't know. It's on days like today that I miss my brother alot and also my grandmother. Weird huh? It kinda just creeps up on you. But it will be a good day and I know that they are both here with me in spirit and I will do my best to get in touch with that today. :)
What else was weird...no one on the subway seemed to know it was my birthday. No one offered me a seat or even said "Happy Birthday". Assholes.
When I got to work, everyone was so adorable. They all wished me a good day and I got cards and hugs! It was really wonderful. Rita had breakfast ready, hot, and waiting at my desk for me. She is so good to me! Especially since when I was on my way in, I almost bought a Vitamin Water, but thought...I will wait until someone runs out for coffee. Then I came in and my favorite flavor was sitting at my desk. MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.
At 1:40pm, I leave for lunch for the first phase of the day. Kelly will be waiting at 92nd street for Rita and I. What could it be? I am really excited about today.
Also! When I was like 2 years old, my dad bought me a little kid record with the "Birthday Song" on it. It goes like this:
"My name is Zoom and I live on the moon...I just came down to sing you this tune...hey Joe...it's your birthday...TODAY!"
Every year since I was two years old, he has either played the record for me or sang it to me on the phone. This year, I came into work to find that he had faxed the song to me. :-D HOW CUTE IS HE!?!?!?! I was wondering if this year was going to go by without the song. Man...he is such an incredible person. So thoughtful and so great. He helped to start my day on such a beautiful note.
Thank you dad.
AND!
My room is officially set-up and perfect. I spent two more hours on it last night redecorating and organizing the shit on my walls. Then I just sat and stared at my new place. I love the way it came out. There is tons of stuff to look at and it feels like home now. It is mine and I am so happy it is done. Thank you again Kelly for getting this started for me. You did so much hard work and got my ass in gear. You are the best.
Ok...that's it for now. Will report back with more later!
TODAY IS MY FUCKING BIRTHDAY! YAY! It's weird when you wake up on the day of your birthday. Everything seems different. Good different, but different nonetheless. As soon as my eyes opened I thought, WOW! I am 25 years old today. And it feels good! I feel older and more mature. Not that a night's sleep will do that. I was talking to Rita last night about how it sucks to keep getting older. But today, I feel good. I am actually happy that I am 25. Maybe I worried too much about being this age in the past and now I have just come to accept it. I mean, of course, there are things I want to change...such as my career, financial status, etc. But for today...I am thrilled to be 25. And I am thrilled to still look like I am 18. I guess the days are coming when I am going to have to capatilize on that theory. I remember all of these people saying to me: "You look so young...you will love that when you get older". Well, now I am older and I do in fact love that.
So here is what I have done on my birthday so far:
Did my normal routine and then while I sat and smoked my cigarette before work, I opened the the birthday cards that I received thus far. I got one from my uncles, one from my granny, one from Rita, one from Rita's sister Jeannie. I have to admit...up until this point...Jeannie's card is by far my favorite. I loved yours too Reets. But Jeannie...damn that shit be funny. I laughed out loud and then hugged the card to my chest.
Ok, I didn't quite hug the card to my chest...that would be queer, right? Thank you for thinking of me. :-D (picture one lone tear rolling down my face...but a tear of happiness)
After opening my cards, I had a moment of sadness. I don't know why. Sometimes when I get really happy, something in me slaps me in the gut and makes me sad. I don't know. It's on days like today that I miss my brother alot and also my grandmother. Weird huh? It kinda just creeps up on you. But it will be a good day and I know that they are both here with me in spirit and I will do my best to get in touch with that today. :)
What else was weird...no one on the subway seemed to know it was my birthday. No one offered me a seat or even said "Happy Birthday". Assholes.
When I got to work, everyone was so adorable. They all wished me a good day and I got cards and hugs! It was really wonderful. Rita had breakfast ready, hot, and waiting at my desk for me. She is so good to me! Especially since when I was on my way in, I almost bought a Vitamin Water, but thought...I will wait until someone runs out for coffee. Then I came in and my favorite flavor was sitting at my desk. MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM.
At 1:40pm, I leave for lunch for the first phase of the day. Kelly will be waiting at 92nd street for Rita and I. What could it be? I am really excited about today.
Also! When I was like 2 years old, my dad bought me a little kid record with the "Birthday Song" on it. It goes like this:
"My name is Zoom and I live on the moon...I just came down to sing you this tune...hey Joe...it's your birthday...TODAY!"
Every year since I was two years old, he has either played the record for me or sang it to me on the phone. This year, I came into work to find that he had faxed the song to me. :-D HOW CUTE IS HE!?!?!?! I was wondering if this year was going to go by without the song. Man...he is such an incredible person. So thoughtful and so great. He helped to start my day on such a beautiful note.
Thank you dad.
AND!
My room is officially set-up and perfect. I spent two more hours on it last night redecorating and organizing the shit on my walls. Then I just sat and stared at my new place. I love the way it came out. There is tons of stuff to look at and it feels like home now. It is mine and I am so happy it is done. Thank you again Kelly for getting this started for me. You did so much hard work and got my ass in gear. You are the best.
Ok...that's it for now. Will report back with more later!
